When you know what you want | Personal

This past season has been all kinds of phenomenal & fabulous. Wedding season has been so much fun & it's not over yet. I've been privileged to meet so many awesome people & have had the opportunity to document their lives. These past six months have also been increasingly busy, demanding & it has been hard to attempt a work-life balance. I'm not going to lie, working four days a week in my day job has been tough going and having to say no to awesome people when I've been overbooked has sucked big time. 

My business & this huge season would not have been possible without the unwavering support from Matt, and my family & friends. Matt & I have an exciting few weeks ahead, with two awesome weddings to shoot, my graduation and then we jet off to America for a well-deserved holiday. This holiday is going to be our chance to recharge, have some adventures (of which I will blog) & build a game plan for the coming season.

Every client, every photo, every task deserves my 110%. I believe in offering quality service & quality products. Each month there gets to a point where I have to admit I'm fully booked, because my booked clients deserve me at my best.

Just a few days ago I had to turn three awesome people away in one day because I just couldn't fit a session in for them before we went away & I had a mini meltdown about it. I sat in the middle of our bed at a ridiculous time of the night when I should have been sleeping. Sobbing because I didn't want to let anyone down. You see I hate saying no. When I should be celebrating that I'm busy & booked, I'm also hurting because I've had to turn someone away. 

And as I sat there sobbing, Matt asked me, why are you doing this to yourself? Is it all worth it?

My immediate answer (between sobs) was - "Yes, I have to". Cue the eye-rolling.

But it's true. I have to do photography, I want to do photography. This is me. I refuse to step back from it. Saying no to photography would be like saying no to oxygen. I want my business to grow & I don't want to have to say no, because I want to do more of what I love. And I love photography like words can't describe. This is my passion. And I may not be 'there' yet, but one day I will be. And I may not always want this like I do today, but I'm up for the adventure. I'm not prepared to let it pass me by & wonder what if when it's too late.

I'm such an advocate for chasing dreams, doing more of what you love & living this life you're given. I'm just so lucky that I have someone by my side to help me chase my dreams, that gives me the opportunity to do what I love, who can pacify the odd meltdown & understands what I mean when I say that this is a part of me now, it makes me feel alive.